I know, it’s been a while already and you thought you’d be over things by now but you’re not. No, you don’t want to go back but you miss the person you had to move on from and you’re finding it hard to really fully move forward.
A lot of people seem to think that just because we miss someone that means we want them back in our life but honestly, most of the time that’s not the case. You can miss someone without wanting to dive back into the toxic lake that was the love you thought you had. Moving on and letting go doesn’t mean that you forget the person from your past or the good moments you shared with them.
You’re still going to miss who that person once was and you’re going to miss the best times that you ended up seeing with them. There were bright days in the dark months you spent with that person even if back then you didn’t really see it. You were used to having them around and you now aren’t sure who you are without them.
Yes, you are getting stronger and you’re growing but it’s hard to change your entire routine and no longer speak to or see someone you once spent all your time and energy on. You might not want to go back but you do want to process and there is nothing wrong with that. The fact that you’re not caving in and letting your emotions push you back to that person proves that you’ve come a long way.
You will miss this person for a long time but eventually, things will get better. You will become stronger each time they reach out and you ignore their advances. I know, it’s hard but you can do it. You are amazing and you deserve to find someone who will put their effort into you as you would them which is what you will find in the future.
At some point, you will stop taking the time to look at their social media to see what they’re up to even if that means having to block them to keep yourself from spending too much time reminiscing. Take each day one step at a time and see where you end up. Cutting ties is never easy and it’s not supposed to be. It is a test of our willpower and once all is said and done, you will come out much more true to yourself than you could ever imagine.