The longer you stay the further from yourself you become and that in itself is what he wants. He has lost himself and you losing yourself to him only furthers the cycle of toxicity. This kind of thing changes your life in ways you will never completely understand and even when you do finally leave, picking up the pieces won’t be easy.
You will never be who you once were and finding the person you want to be is not easy. Life won’t be what it once was and moving forward is harder than it seems. Toxic relationships overall hold lots of serious consequences even for the victim. Well, especially for the victim. You stop holding onto your self-worth and you let your self-esteem dive down lower than it’s ever been before.
You don’t hold yourself in the same away anymore and the confident woman you once were is no longer anything like the person you’ve become. You don’t know how you could have ever even been so confident before, things just don’t add up in your own mind. The more time that passes the more you lose yourself and well, that I guess is the point.
You begin closing yourself off because he doesn’t like your friends or your family hates him and in the end, you’re left with no one, not really even him. Sure, he’s there, but he’s not ‘really there.’ You begin to question everything, his lies come forth and as the days turn to months and the months turn to years you can’t keep up with how many times he’s pulled the wool over your face.
Getting out of relationships like this is hard and nothing about moving on is easy. You can’t break free until you find it in yourself to do-so. No one can force you to make this choice and well, you’re not going to be able to do it overnight. Something in you needs to change for you to be able to decide that moving on and leaving this person behind is the option you want to take.
That all having been said, leaving a toxic relationship is one of the best things you can do for yourself and in the end, you will not regret it. When you finally leave him and move on, you will begin to get a sense of normal back into your life. You will begin seeing things as they are rather than how he wanted them to be and the future will finally feel bright again.
Don’t be so willing to settle in life or in love, you deserve so much more than what a toxic relationship has to offer. Life isn’t always as simple as we make it out to be. If he’s not caring for you properly, cut ties and find someone who will.